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When Elliott lures the animalistic Jack to his apartment for a late night hook up, he unexpectedly unearths a dark emotional connection.
Colourful Femme Elliott, appears to be the life of the party. But behind the make-up, he struggles in his search for sexual intimacy. When he manages to lure the animalistic Jack to his apartment for a late night hook up, he unexpectedly unearths a dark emotional connection.
Touching on the hot topics of hookup culture and toxic masculinity, My Loneliness is Killing Me explores loneliness and division among gay and queer communities against a cold, neon metropolis.
My Loneliness Is Killing Me was a reaction to seeing so many films about gay and bisexual men that weren’t about gay or queer culture; it was about being part of a community and wanting to see the lives of myself and the gay and queer men I know onscreen, especially when it comes to club and hookup culture. There are so many stories to tell in this world, and so many that aren’t being told.
All my work to date has been punctuated by themes of loneliness. Loneliness is a fundamental, human emotion. It is a sense of fear that is almost inherent in our genes.
My Loneliness is Killing Me is a film that will relate to anyone who shares the fear of living or dying without human connection and intimacy. What drew me to the project were the characters, and the story’s commentary on modern issues. We have a character in Jack, who is openly gay, married and so ‘masculine’ he is almost homophobic. He’s a walking contradiction, a byproduct of toxic masculinity. He is someone who has married out of status and social obligation, and not necessarily for love. Elliott, on the other hand, is the polar opposite. Someone who embraces his ‘Queer’ identity. However, he is a victim to the new breed of homosexual men like Jack. Someone who feels left behind by his community in a world where being feminine is deemed ugly and unworthy.
Both men appeal to my obsession for complex characters who are dealing with their own differing experiences of loneliness, in their own conflicting ways.
Edinburgh International Film Festival - June 2018
SX, Mens Sexual Health Q&A, Edinburgh - Oct 2018
Inverness Film Festival - Nov 2018
Scottish Queer Film Festival, Dec 2018
SQIFF on Tour, Ayr - Feb 2019
SQIFF QTIPOC Shorts, Kelvinhall, Glasgow - Feb 2019
Wicked Queer, Boston LGBT Film Festival,
Doubleheader with NEVRLAND - Mar 2019
Aye Write, Q&A, Glasgow - Mar 2019
CineQ Birmingham Queer Film Festival - Mar 2019
Outfest Fusion, LGBTQPOC Film Festival - Mar 2019
Glasgow Short Film Festival - Mar 2019
Vues D'en Face - Mar 2019
BFI Flare Film Festival - Mar 2019
CineQ, China - Apr 2019
Inside Out Toronto LGBT Film Festival - May 2019
OutWest Film Fest - May 2019
Southside Film Festival, Glasgow - Jun 2019
KASHISH Mumbai - Jun 2019
Frameline: San Francisco - Jun 2019